I know I’ve been MIA lately. Sorry. I’ve been having a bit of a internal struggle about whether I should keep blogging. Let me take a minute to explain. Don’t worry, I’m not going anywhere.
Last month, I had 30 people here for Thanksgiving dinner. It was fabulous. I loved every second of seeing my family. I loved the kids running around the house screaming with glee as they chased each other. I loved having my brothers and sisters in the same room, catching up on all the things going on in their lives. I loved the food, and the noise and excitement. I dreamed about having big family holiday dinners when I was a kid, and now we have them a few times a year. It makes my heart happy.
But the weeks leading up to that day were crazy. I obsessed over the little things, like painting the spots in the walls that the contractor made when they were doing the bathroom. I’m pretty sure no one would have noticed them, but I noticed them every time I walked by them. I painted the rest of the trim (finally) in the living room. I re-arranged the furniture. I sold our family room furniture, bought new stuff, hung new curtains, got rid of old stinky rugs, painted the family room… I was busy, busy, busy.
And I meant to blog about it. Really, I did. I even took pictures. But then I look at the pictures and decide that it’s not quite “done”. I still need to hang some more artwork, or replace the ugly vertical blinds, or find a new carpet to replace the old one… and so I decide not to post anything yet, because it’s not good enough. The truth is, I am a horrible stylist. I have so many interesting pieces of furniture, knick knacks, pictures, etc… but I can’t seem to make them work together to create something that I love; something that I’m proud of. And my obsession with making it all “perfect” is making me nuts.
What was making it worse is that I receive about 50 blog posts from the “big” and “bigger” bloggers in my email every day, and that doesn’t even include the ones I read from Facebook posts and Pinterest. And with every blog I read, I feel that I am completely out of my league. And then I don’t want to share what I’ve done because I can’t possibly complete with the amazing rooms they show. And my crafts don’t ever come out like theirs do; mine look like a pre-schooler did them. And my pictures are horrible. How can it be so hard to take a picture of a table that doesn’t move?? Well it is.
Then I read about how to be a successful blogger. You know the advice: Post often, but make sure it’s quality stuff. Have gorgeous pictures, not pics you took with your iPhone. Make sure you appeal to everyone. Oh, and get sponsors and make money and… and… and… I can’t keep up.
So, instead of trying to keep up, I’ve decided that I won’t keep up. I’m going to continue to do what I want, and share what I do regardless of whether it is on par with what everyone else is doing. And I hope you don’t mind that my projects aren’t perfect, and the pictures are fabulous, and I don’t give away a ton of stuff. I will start to post again this week – I’ve got a ton of pins that I’ve tried to catch you all up on.
Until then, I’ll be hanging the new mirrors in my bathroom, and trying to figure out how to make an old dog smell less disgusting. Yep, that’s the stuff that’s going on, and I hope you don’t mind when I share it with you later 🙂
P.S. Can you give me your best “de-stinking a dog” tips? We have tried regular old dog shampoo, but after the first hour or so, they all stink again. Thanks!!